It was an early morning today. I woke up on time for a change and had no need to rush to get things done. This afforded me the opportunity to sit on the patio and watch the sun rise. I sat there, taking in the sights and sounds of the early morning, listening to crickets chirp and the occasional bird song. A train passed through down the way and I heard the occasional car pass by, taking someone to work, no doubt.
I sat there and just enjoyed it. I thanked God for the day and that a new month had come. I thought about how different watching the sun rise is to watching it set. How the sky starts getting brighter in a crescendo long before you an see the sun above the trees, almost as if we need to be eased into the light, but there was never a moment where the light just flashed on before me. By contrast, when last I watched the sun set, there was a clear moment when all went dark, like someone had flipped a switch.
In those moments, as I sat silently, drinking my orange juice (this story would seem better with coffee, but I don’t keep that stuff in the house…), I felt somewhat impatient, like I wanted the sun to rise faster or that I had things to do. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and let that thought go. I asked for the strength to do what I need to do and the will to take the first steps. I need to spend more time staying still.
I want this to be a month of change, a month where I get moving on all those things I need to do. A month of preparation for the unknown.
Regardless of anything, it should be an interesting month.